After two years of feeling "silenced" by palace authorities, Meghan Markle finally came forward to tell her side of the story on the special Oprah with Meghan and Harry on Sunday night. Impeccably clad in a black-and-white wrap dress, the Duchess of Sussex talked with her friend Oprah Winfrey about her life in and out of the palace.



As promised, no subject was off-limits, including discussion about rumors that she had made Kate Middleton cry over an incident before her wedding. She discussed her feelings over learning that son Archie would not be named a prince and would not receive security, and — perhaps most shockingly — revealed that at her lowest point, she felt she "didn't want to be alive anymore." Meghan also denied being the leading player in the couple's decision to relinquish their senior royal status and pursue their own life and goals in the relative privacy of their new California home.



Some royal watchers have long claimed that the duchess is claiming victimhood to cover up her own ambitions and agenda. Bustle reports that several of them weighed in on the Oprah interview even before it aired, claiming she was putting on a good show in front of a friend asking softball questions. The quotes were gathered by a pair of social experimenters curious to see whether the royal experts would comment on something they hadn't seen. So was Meghan's apparent vulnerability all an act? One expert offers some thoughts.



The List spoke to Mark Bowden, a human behavior and body language expert who is also a panelist on The Behavior Panel. He watched Meghan's gestures and facial expressions, and what he found might come as a surprise to the palace loyalists.



Bowden notes that the duchess seemed most open and expressive when she was talking about the wedding vows she and Harry exchanged three days before the big royal ceremony. He says,



"When remembering happy events, she is big and bold with her gestures."



But her body language when talking about less pleasant matters was even more telling. Suppressing the lips or putting a hand to one's mouth can indicate you're trying not to say too much; Meghan did both when talking about her naiveté about marrying royalty, and again when she talked about unnamed palace individuals who hadn't been supportive of her.



As Meghan recalled feeling "unprotected" from the media, she lowered her head and covered her eyes; Bowden says this indicates she was feeling,



"Either shame she feels about not being protected, or shame about how she now feels towards the institution for not protecting her."



She showed indications of stress, such as swallowing and rapid breathing, when discussing such uncomfortable topics as her suicidal thoughts and racism within the "Firm."



What about the account of her conflict with Kate? Meghan told Oprah that in fact, it was Kate who made her cry that day. Bowden says that Meghan's vocal tones and increased blinking "indicate the story is true."



Throughout the two-hour long special, the Duchess of Sussex displayed real emotions between the movement of her eyes, mouth and forehead. When she talked about the South Africa tour in which she infamously told a reporter that she was "not okay," her facial expressions gave away her duress. Bowden notes that her,



"Blink rate [was] up on talking about tour of South Africa and the pain she was feeling."



As things worsened within the family, Markle revealed, she discovered that her son would not receive the protection that she would have liked. During this segment of their conversation, Markle's forehead told the story of how painful that exchange was for her. Bowen even notes that her forehead movements showed,



"The grief around how she was told her son was not going to be protected."



Once the discussion around her mental health struggles began, it was Markle's breathing that spoke volumes. Bowen adds,



"[Her] breathing rate [was] high as she recovered from telling the story of thinking about suicide."



Viewers also watched as her eyes welled with tears and she explained how trapped and lonely she felt within her confines in the institution. Luckily, Markle's husband showed his support throughout the interview, with Bowen even noting their close touch.



"Meghan's thumb rubs Harry's hand in soothing gestures."



The Duchess also had another ally in her interviewer. Bowen says,



"By the end of the interview Oprah and Megan are mirroring each other almost exactly. [...] Hand to face — finger curled below lip. Very sympathetic to each other."

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